PSA... ♥

So I've come to learn that this blog challenge stuff isn't for me... lol
1) I don't have the attention span for this ish... There's a million other things running through my mind on any given day, and sometimes my blog, as much as I adore it, is NOT one of them lol.
2) I'm a free spirit... I wanna blog when I wanna blog... and if I don't feel like blogging, then I don't lol.
3) Umm this is my last semester of undergrad... it's exam week. #Shrug.
4) My name is GiGi... and I am a #TwitterJunkie. I mean, who wants to sit and type paragraphs of stuff when some random rich ass white person guy gave us a place to spill our guts all day everyday, in 140 characters or less?? #ImJustSayin... 
5) Some of these topics are like repeats, because I feel like my letters are to the same people lol... Y'all know I don't like anybody hahaha!
x0x0♥

Day 26--Letter to the Last Person I Made a Pinky Promise To.♥

Ummm.... I don't make Pinky Promises... lol. #Ghey. 

Day 25--Letter to the Person Going Through the Worst of Times.♥

Dear Brother/Sister,

It's only temporary. 

I say this to loved ones whenever they're going through something, and it's not something that was force-fed to me in church or anything like that. I truly believe it. The trials and tribulations we endure, no matter how major or minor, are only temporary. That's the reason we go "through" things...so that we can come out on the other side, hopefully in a better place than we were in before. I know it's not easy to be positive sometimes, especially when nothing seems to be going right...but hopefully you don't quit. So, to you...whoever, wherever you are, whatever situation you're in the midst of... keep keepin' on. Life is much more than the sum of negative events. 

Sincerely Yours,

The Current {not Eternal} Optimist.♥

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,

When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,

When the funds are low and the debts are high,

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh...

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

--Author Unknown.♥

Day 24--Letter to the Person Who Gave Me My Favorite Memory.♥

Dear Admissions Office,
Good lookin' on that 4-year full ride. I remember the first day I got your letter in the mail. I was wearing a pink shirt and shorts, and my hair was relaxed, with a burgundy-red rinse. I had these glasses, and the color of my hair kinda complemented them. Anyway, that day my mom was sooooo happy and proud. That made me happy and proud. Even though I can't stand your long lines and ridiculously rude employees, without you I'd probably be broke back in Cleveland somewhere with all the others who weren't as awesome as me in high school, and didn't earn a scholarship. hehehe.
It's Been Real.
Deuces in December.♥

Day 23--Letter to the Person I Last Kissed.♥

Note: I know some may say it's cheating to use song lyrics as my letter...but f**k that, this is my blog! I promise, this is eXACTLY how I'm feeling right now...
To My Chocolate,
It's not so easy 
Lovin' me....
It gets so ComPlicated....
All the things you've gotta be.
Everything's changing....
But you're the truth.
I'm amazed by all your PaTienCe...
Everything I put you through.
And when I'm about to fall 
Somehow you're always waiting with your open arms to catch me.
You're gonna Save Me from Myself....
My love is tainted...
By your touch. 
'cause some guys have shown me aces,
But you've got that RoyaL fLusH.
I know it's crazy....
Everyday.
Well tomorrow may be shaky...
But you never turn away...
Don't ask me why I'm crying,
'cause when I start to crumble...
You know how to keep me smilin'...
You always Save Me from Myself.


Love, 
Your Peanut Butter.
(via Christina Aguilera: "Save Me from Myself": Back to Basics)♥

Day 22--Letter to Someone I Want to Give a Second Chance.♥

Dear Old Friend,
I'd love to talk to you again. 
I'd love to get back to that place...
When we could call one another anytime.
When it was all love.
When you understood, even when no one else did.
I'd love to say that things were cool,
That we were BFFs.
That I loved you like a sister.
That anyone who had a problem with you, had a problem with me.
That I'd snatch a bitch for you.
I wish we were able to break down the wall of animosity that had been constructed.
Just talk.
Like old times.
There's only one problem:
We tried that.
Then you and your psychological construction crew built the wall back up...
And this time,
I'm not volunteering to be on the demolition crew that breaks it down.
Good Riddance.♥

Day 21--Letter to Someone I Judged By Their First Impression.♥

Dear Disappointment,
When I first saw you, that little voice in the back of my mind told me that you were no good...at least not for me. I should have listened. 
Behind the cuteness, what did you have to offer? Why were you in that place, at that time? Didn't you have anywhere else to be? 
All these questions gave me the impression that you wouldn't be around for too long...and that your presence wouldn't be essential to my life. Again, I should've listened. Still, I chose to let you into my space. Into my face. Into my place...#ALessonLearned.
You're not a bad person...you didn't hurt me too badly...nothing like that. You were just...disappointing. Had I gone by my interpretation of you in the first place, I could have saved myself the time and energy. Because you definitely proved me right. But it's cool. 
If nothing else, you taught me one thing: Always listen to that "little voice"....it's usually not at "little" as we try to make it seem...and it's usually right. 
Yours Truly,
The One Who Got Away (Thank God) ♥

Day 20--Letter to the One that Broke My Heart the Hardest.♥

To He Whose Name We Don't Speak, 
Hmm....I used to think that you'd always be the person who'd broken my heart, but now that I write this letter, I realize that you didn't break my heart. You crushed my ego, maybe...but my heart? I'm not really sure it was ever in your possession for you to break. See, for me...high school was this cozy little box full of routine. Even in the middle of the hoodest of 'hoods, high school felt like this little box of protection. To put it plain and simple, you were all I knew. I mean, I loved you. I won't deny that. But I don't think I was in love with you. Maybe after 2 years, I thought I was supposed to be in love with you...I mean, it was high school. Two years was like damn-near married lol. But what I have now....what I've had these last 4 years...feels completely different. Completely better. Completely real. So it makes me question everything I thought I had with you all those years ago.... either way, I felt some kinda way when you left...but there are no hard feelings. You taught me a lot...about how I should/shouldn't be treated. About what I should/shouldn't accept. I can appreciate that. The heartbreak I felt back then is completely covered up now (notice I said covered, not healed)...because I haven't seen spoken to you in years. If I was face-to-face with you right now, I don't have any idea what I'd say or how I'd feel. I do know this much: What we had was good at the time. We shared a time and space that no one else can appreciate as we do. When you left, things were hard for me. I felt rejected, stupid, duped, discarded, played, and a plethora of other things that took awhile to move past. But now, I'm a different me. An older me. A wiser me. A 'me' that survived heartbreak at the hands of a 'you'... and I'm grateful.
Sincerely,
Me.♥

Day 19--Letter to Someone Who Pesters My Mind (in a good way).♥

Dear GiGi,
You stay on my mind alllllllll the time! I just love you! More than anyone on this planet... When the sun rises, I'm thinking of you. When it sets, I'm thinking of you...You've come so far, and all I wanna do is see to it that you have all the successes and accomplishments that life has to offer. Sometimes I think it's narcissistic the way I think about you so much... but if I don't love you, who else will? If I don't love you, how will you know how to properly give and receive love from anyone else? Of course there are some things I'd change about you, as we're all works in progress...but for the most part, you're a fabulous inspiration. I'm constantly thinking of ways to improve and expand so that you'll be able to live life the way it was made for you to live! At this point in life, you've learned to weed out all the unworthy and unnecessary, tolerate the ones you have to, and love and cherish all the ones you want. Above all, to you I am true. Even when you're a trainwreck in the morning, or a bitch in the afternoon. I love it all! 
Forever Yours,
GiGi ♥

Day 18--Letter to the Person I Wish I Could Be.♥

Dear Self,
Everything you're not has made you everything you are. I'm thankful for that.... you're completely attainable, and my evolution towards you has been a Beautiful Struggle thus far...but it will be worth it. Each year that passes gives me a less blurry vision of you...I think we call that growing up lol. I can see what I want out of life, and each decision made, good or bad, helps me see that all the joys and pains of today are preparing me for the day when you and I become one. You're not perfect...you never will be. But you're old enough to know that such is life, and that you deserve the best. And that the best is worth working for. Success, happiness, beauty (internal and external), faith, love, and friendship have all worked together so far, building me up so that in time, you and I will be identical. You're not only the person I wish I could be, you're the person I will become!
Until Then,
Self.♥

Day 17--Letter to Someone from My Childhood.♥

Dear Tay,
I miss you! I was just telling someone the other day about how you and I were thick as thieves when we were growing up on 131st lol! You were like the big brother I never had! As soon as I saw this topic, I immediately knew I was gonna write it to/about you, because all my childhood memories pretty much include you and our family (especially the funny ones lol). Remember when we got in trouble for taking that money, splitting it, and trying to spend it all at the corner store? Lol.... Remember when we used to sit at Grampie's bar, or in Grandma's room in the big chair and watch cartoons, eating cereal? Remember lazy summer days, riding our bikes up and down the street, and sometimes sneaking and riding around the block on Ferris, even though we weren't supposed to? Remember you teaching me how to ride without training wheels??? Lol. Random stuff, but it's always ingrained in my memory because life was so simple and easy and free (literally and figuratively lol) back then! You guys' house was like my second home lol! I was so sad when you moved! Even though it's more recent, I also remember the talk you and I had right after my mom's funeral. You'll never know how much I needed that....but then again, you're the only one who actually did know. I've missed Aunt Gina so much since she's been gone...and although I wish she and my mom could still be here with us today, I was grateful to have you to talk to. Sympathy is appreciated, but you actually knew/know the pain I feel inside! You were always my favorite cousin, and even though we're all grown now and life's taken charge of the daily routines and responsibilities we all have, I know that if I needed you and I made that phone call, you'd be there! Love you, and Diana, and my FatMan for life! 
Love Always, 
Your Favorite Cousin Ever in the History of Life lol x0x0 ♥

Catch-Up for the Weekend.♥

OK, now that I've come out of my lazy slump and caught up on my Blog Challenge lol... I can recap. 
Side note: Whether or not I blog, I'm constantly tweeting lol, so if you're ever missing me too much, that's where to find me hahaha! Anyways...
First and foremost, I have been sick. All week. Like WTF, who gets sick the first week of school...SMH. Clearly I don't have time for this foolishness!
Speaking of school...in case y'all are unaware (smh, I wanted to type "y'all ain't know", but I went back and changed it because of this compulsion thing I have for grammar lol), last week kicked off my final semester of undergrad... I feel like I've mentioned that already in a recent post, but oh well. 1) this is my ish, and 2) that's noteworthy. It's kind of a big deal... Nothing but the grace of God and all his homeboys pushed me through these last four years. 
Speaking of the grace of God... have you guys seen Takers yet? If not...you really should jump off a cliff invest in making that trip to the local theater.... this one is definitely worth it. Give your bootleg-DVD-man-at-the-gas-station-down-the-street a night off. The movie actually had a pretty nice plot... and this is coming from someone who knew absolutely nothing about the plot until seeing the movie...I've seen the promo commercials on TV, of course, but that minute is usually spent drooling over Idris Elba and all his chocolaty fineassness...soooo yeah. Go see that. Great cast with the exception of Chris Brown's whack, lisping, halfway audible, super overbite having ass. 
x0x0♥

Day 16--Letter to Someone Who's Not in My State.♥

Hey babe...

I miss you. I think I'm going to call you soon, since I'm getting droopy-eyed. Time for pillow-talk lol. I wish you were closer, but we've gotta make do right now...it'll all be worth it in the end! I won't get too mushy, but I love you to pieces... Always have, and I always will...There's no one in the world that I'd rather have spent these past four years with...through the good times and the not-so-good. My place is with you. Keep making my day with your smile, and making my nights with your voice... 

...Continue to love me. Never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved....

Ever Thine,

Ever Mine,

Ever Ours.

Day 15--Letter to the Person I Miss the Most. ♥

This should be ridiculously obvious at this point, so I'll keep it short and sweet... 


Mommy, I miss you. But it's ok. We'll reunite one day! Until then, please know that you raised an amazingly intelligent, perceptive, nurturing, strong-willed, fabulous, classy daughter... and your son isn't so bad either lol! Thanks for preparing me for this big, bad world out here. I'm forever indebted and grateful. You're the Queen of My Heart...and your love is like tears from the stars.
Love Always,
Your First Born♥

Day 14--Letter to Someone I've Drifted Away From. ♥

*Drifting on a memoryyyy.....ain't no place I'd rather be, than with youuuuuu....*
Haha, but not really though.


Dear Creepo,
We've drifted apart... and with good reason. You're slightly on the stalker-ish side. And it's not cute... So I purposely severed ties from you...well, not severed them (believe me, you could be totally and completely cut off if you push me..) but I've learned to ignore your continuous (and usually pointless) calls, texts, IMs, emails, FB messages, tweets, etc. Actually, the fact that you've attempted to contact me via ALL these methods...is further proof that you're borderline obsessed with me... so *Kanye shrug* ya had to go! For future reference... you come on a tad bit strong. Especially when the person you're coming on to wants nothing to do with you, aside from the occasional small-talk-filled obligatory birthday and holiday text. 
Deuces. 
x0x0♥

Day 13--Letter to Someone I Wish Could Forgive Me. ♥

To you,
Sorry things had to end that way...
From me. ♥

Day 12--Letter to the Person I Hate the Most. ♥

Dear Mr. Lynch,

Nearly 300 years ago, before the people who gave birth to the people who gave birth to the people who gave birth to me were even thought of, you hurt me to my core. An everlasting hurt that has stood the test of time... it's ingrained in the foundation of a people who could be so much more, if only someone would snap their fingers and bring us out of our hypnosis. All those years ago, you felt it was your God-given right to encourage the use of "fear, distrust, and envy" to control the minds of MY people. My ancestors. MY family. For so many years, and even until this very day... this very second, there are remnants of your disgusting methods flowing through the blood of MY brothers and sisters... There are children who've been raised and conditioned to hate the shade of their skin, the texture of their hair, the beautiful features they've inherited... all because you and your brethren wanted Control. Nearly 300 years later... you've still got some of our minds under your control, even after you've gone on to rot in the pits down under, where you rightfully belong. You got your wish, Mastah Willie Lynch. Even to this day, there are those of us who "love, trust, and respect ONLY you"... The beauty of the bond that was forced onto those vessels from the motherland, beaten to a pulp so that you could have Control. So yes, there's no one I hate more than you... because your philosophy inspired an entire people to hate themselves. I hate you every time I see a child with chemically-altered hair, all because she "hates when it's nappy". I hate you every time I hear someone referred to as "cute for a dark-skinned boy/girl". I hate you every time I see another news story about my people killing one another... killing themselves. Hopefully my people will realize their greatness, and someone will snap their fingers.
Signed,
A Mad Black Woman. ♥

Day 11--Letter to a Deceased Person I Wish I Could Talk To. ♥

Dearly Deceased,
You've affected the lives of so many.... 
Your tender smiles.
Your gentle mannerisms.
That voice...
You were a genius in my eyes...
I'm reminded of you every day...
In my home,
In my car....
You'll live on in the hearts of those who love you...
But all I wanna know...
The one thing I really wish I had the opportunity to ask you...
What really happened at Neverland Ranch...??? ♥
x0x0...R.i.P.

Day 10--Letter to Someone I Don't Talk to As Much As I'd Like. ♥

"So I pray that You hold my hand, as I follow Your footprints in the sand... "--Beanie Siegel. {Prayer}.

Dear Father,

I've always been a part of church...for as long as I can remember. Until I came to college... I have a fairly small church family, but I'm so comfortable and at-home around them, that it feels weird to think about going to a church here in the town where I attend school. I know, I probably shouldn't feel this way, right? I mean, we're all Your children...but still. I know that You're always with me, through the good and the bad...I just find myself falling into that pattern of only talking to You when the bad comes along. My wish is that I'll find balance in life, the strength to talk to You whenever...whether it's thanking You for the blessings You always provide {whether I behave deservingly or not} or seeking Your guidance when the road gets rough {which it sometimes does}. I want to further our relationship, because whether I'm physically in a church or not, I've always known, accepted, appreciated, and acknowledged the role You've played in my life. I'm eternally grateful, because I can honestly say that when I felt like NO ONE on this planet Earth was on my side, You were there. In the darkest hours of my life, I've felt Your presence, and it never wavered...no man/woman can compete with that. With all that I've been through in the last 22 years, having someone constant and dependable has gotten me through days when I didn't think I'd see the next one. It's one thing to sit in a building and listen to scriptures and songs for a few hours once a week. Don't get me wrong, I feel the most serene and safe when I'm in Your house. But I believe that when we're outside those walls, that's when we're tested on our belief...our faith in You. Our relationship isn't for show. It's not forced...It's something that's ingrained in my soul and heart, and always has been. I'm not anywhere close to Perfection...and You cherish me regardless. What more could one ask for? Though my location has changed, Your presence hasn't. Just as You promised. So this letter is to You. It's the least I can do. 

In Your Name,

Amen. ♥

Day 9--Letter to Someone I Wish I Could Meet. ♥

Disclaimer: If you've ever read my blog, you should already KNOW who this letter is gonna be addressed to! Lol! 
To the Musical Love of My Life,
Once again, every word in this letter's gonna be about You...I love you!! Of course I've already written one letter to you in this blog challenge, and I don't know if it's against the "rules" to write to the same person twice or more, but oh well... There's no one else alive that I'd rather meet! Yes, I know there's Barack Obama and such, but I'll keep it real... I'd still rather meet you! I'd be Lying to Myself if I said anything different! Lol. I wish people could understand how much I adore you! Not even on an attraction level (don't get me wrong, you're mad cute!!) but just musically... No one has my attention the way you do! I could tell you how I feel about you Night and Day! They don't feel me, though! Lol.
I was so sad that I couldn't go to your concert earlier this month, but one day... one day! Until then, I'll stick to the musical orgasm I have every day of my life (no, literally) when I hear your voice in my headphones, on my laptop, or in my car. Words can't express how amazing I think you are, in the least groupie-ish way possible! Lol. If I met you and you sang to me, I'd probably faint and fall on my ass like Ashley in that one episode of Fresh Prince of Bel-Air when Tevin Campbell came to her party lmao! That would seriously be thee best thing ever, though! Anywho, I'm so happy you're getting all the success you deserve, and I hope it continues! I'll profess my love for you 'til the end of my days! Yes, it's really that serious! Lmao!
Love Always, 
Your Number One (again) ♥
PS: For your listening enjoyment... I can't let an hour go by without listening to this song! If you aren't hip, you better get hip with thee quickness!