Dear Daddy,
You are a CHARACTER! Lol... I thank God for you all the time, because I see all around me the consequences of fathers not being in their children's lives. It's so obvious, in a lot of people, that they needed that male guidance as they grew up. I have so much respect for you stepping up and making my brother always feel as though you were his Daddy, and treating him no differently than you treat me. He's a mess, but he's a great kid, and unfortunately his own "father" won't know this because he's too sorry to--wait this letter is strictly for my own Daddy--...This makes me even more thankful for you. Of course our family was nowhere near perfect, but you always made me feel loved and cherished, as your princess, and your only {biological} child. So even in your absences, I felt your presence ALWAYS. For that, I'm eternally grateful...Because of you, I know my worth. I know what to demand from life, what to expect, and what not to accept. I know that I can call you, anytime, no matter what the reason. I know that if someone mistreats me, they have both my daddies (you and Him) to deal with! Even though things could never get perfectly right between you and Mommy, it didn't make me love either of you any less. Romantically, things didn't work out but I for one am thankful for the love you two had for each other, that I could always feel. It's what created me, and gave you two a life-long bond to share. The fact that you weren't married, or even together for a long time didn't take away from that. Now that you're remarried, and left me up here in Ohio!! relocated to FL, I still feel the same...that lets me know that despite location, or added family, you're still my Daddy, and I'm still your Princess. I won't get into specifics, but I'm so proud of the progress you've made. Cleveland was no good for you...a change in scenery, in location, in the company you keep...goes a long way. I pray that everything remains fulfilling for you in Tallahassee, and that you're happy, because I've never been more proud of you, as a man, than I am right now. You're taking care of business, staying out of trouble, and you're safe. That's everything I could hope for! Keep making me proud, and I'll keep doing the same!
Love Always,
Your Princess.♥
I saw this on another blog, and decided to fill it out...because I love random surveys...it you don't, click the 'Back' button now lol...
50 Things You Should Know About Me!
1. What time did you get up this morning?
♥ 9 Am...my bladder wakes me up at approximately this time EVERY morning. SMH.
2. How do you like your steak?
♥ I don't.
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
♥ Robin Hood... ugh. Boyfriend wanted to see it...def not my cup of tea...
4. What is your favorite TV show?
♥ It's definitely a tie between Criminal Minds and Grey's Anatomy...which you guys probably know lol.
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
♥ Chicago... (or Homewood, IL...the suburb my boyfriend lives in). I love it there! Midwest girl 4 life...
6. What did you have for breakfast?
♥ Nothing
7. What is your favorite cuisine?
♥ I love pretty much all things Italian.
8. What foods do you dislike? or rather don't prefer?
♥ Mediterranean...I just can't get with it. Also, sushi...the thought of it makes my stomach turn.
9. Favorite place to eat?
♥ The Melting Pot!! Pricey {if you go alone}, but very chic and tasty.
10. Favorite dressing?
♥ Hidden Valley Ranch
11. What kind of vehicle do you drive?
♥ Mazda Protege
12. What are your favorite clothes?
♥ I love summery, flowy dresses. Anything with leopard print will probably tickle my fancy.
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
♥ Anywhere in Europe...just to get a different taste of life.
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
♥ Half empty...but it's my job to fill it up all the way!
15. Where would you want to retire?
♥ Somewhere cool, but not cold. Warm, but not hot... Quiet... know any places?
16. Favorite time of day?
♥ Getting home from work and/or school, and being able to just relax.
17. Where were you born?
♥ Cleveland, OH
18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
♥ None of them...
22. People watcher?
♥ Dude...I'm a psych major. Lol.
23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
♥ Both...
24. Do you have any pets?
♥ I have 5 year old orange tabby {cat} named Monty. He work's my NERVES but I love 'im.
25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?
♥ I just got a promotion at Torrid last week...and I'm happy. I truly adore my job. Also, my birthday is next month. YaY.
26. What did you want to be when you were little?
♥ A veterinarian...until I learned that the animals might just die, and that you might just have to cut them open and see their insides... yeah, I'll pass.
27. What is your best childhood memory?
♥ Being free...riding my bike up and down the street {my maternal and paternal families actually lived about 5 houses apart. Amazing!}
28. Are you a cat or dog person?
♥ Cat. Dogs are nasty, and un-potty trained. And loud.
29. Are you married?
♥ Not yet. Degrees, Marriage License, Birth Certificates...in that order.
30. Always wear your seat belt?
♥ About 99% of the time.
31. Been in a car accident?
♥ One. Wasn't my fault...but thank God I ain't to cool for the safe belt.
32. Any pet peeves?
♥ Oh GOSH. You don't EVEN want to get me started...that's a whole post or three in itself.
33. Favorite Pizza Toppings?
♥ Sausage and mushrooms.
34. Favorite Flower?
♥ Gerbera daisies!
35. Favorite ice cream?
♥ Crap, I'm too lazy to look in my freezer but it's this. It's pretty much awesome.
36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
♥ Arby's... only for the loaded potato bites.
37. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
♥ Once...ugh, because of a freakin' rolling stop. I mean, no one here can drive any damn way, so WTF. Lol.
38. From whom did you get your last email?
♥ I think my daddy and/or my stepmom
39. What store would you max out your credit card?
♥ Torrid!
40. Do anything spontaneous lately?
♥ I just bought my first Coach bag... I usually don't even like Coach bags {I'm more of a Dooney girl} but this was a must have...
41. Like your job?
♥J'adore Torrid!
42. Broccoli?
♥ That's coo'
43. What was your favorite vacation?
♥ Spring Break with my love earlier this year...hehehe
44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
♥ My best friend, and some amazing coworkers of hers that have become my friends too.
45. What are you listening to right now?
♥ The musical stylings of the White boys who live in the apt below me, and think they can rap.
46. What is your favorite color?
♥ PiNK!
47. How many tattoos do you have?
♥ Four.
48. What do you like to do when nobody else is around?
♥ I dance in the mirror, ALL the time...and on runway-worthy songs, I put on heels and model-walk around the house. Lol...
49. Favorite Movie?
♥ The Silence of the Lambs.
50. Coffee drinker?
♥ Occasionally.
"Nothing shines brighter than a good soul..." --Journey, over at The Soul of it All
I haven't blogged in a week or so, and I've been catching up on all your blogs, but I didn't know what to write about on my own. Until I read this quote. It just spoke to me, and to my current emotional situation.
I was, as Jill Scott would say, in a bad headspace last week. There was much to be excited about, with my dad's wedding and finally spending an Easter at home, but in the midst of all that, there are things that occurred that weighed heavily on my mind and heart. I don't really feel like getting into the details, because I'm finally on the road to feeling like myself again...not the unhappy me that I've felt like lately.
All I'll say is that at the end of the day, we all need to purge and do what it takes to make ourselves happy. Whether that happiness comes from writing, singing, talking, working out, crying...whatever. Just take care of your heart and soul as best as you know how. When you're happy...I mean really, truly happy, from the inside out... you feel better. Your aura is better, and people gravitate towards the happiness that's radiating from you. True happiness is something that people and things can't take away from you.
I'd love to be one of those truly happy people, but at the moment, I'm not. There are things that I've let dictate my happiness for so long, that I have to get back to that place in my head and heart where I feel in charge, and free from all the BS. I want to get back to being the girl who just looks...happy.
Now that the formalities are out of the way.... the wedding was great! My first time being a bridesmaid. We're having technical difficulties with the personal pics (read: someone's camera is jacked up) but the professional ones should be ready soon. Everything ran smoothly, and now my stepmom is officially my stepmom, even though she's always been my stepmom lol. Long story.
School is almost over. 3 more weeks, then finals. I'll have a lil' break, then it's right back to the books for the summer. I've done GREAT this semester, in every class. I haven't felt that optimistic in a long time, and it's feeling good. 3 more classes this summer, then an externship this fall stand between me and my first degree. Now that's a good headspace to be in. When people fail you, you've always got yourself, your sanity, and your success to fall back on.
x0x0♥
